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[18 Jun 2005|11:01pm] </a></b></a>thesamething so i decided i'm going back to my old el jay. most of you are already on it. if not....then add it. the entries are old...im aware. this journal has only been crappy. 2 :: smile ::

[18 Jun 2005|08:46pm] another night sitting on my bed crying dissapointments a killer. this is not a sympathy update its just letting you all know the less you can ever rely on me when its needed. ive never seen friendships and relationships backfire so much in my face as in 2005. what a crap year. 1 :: smile ::

[18 Jun 2005|01:37pm] but things cant be perfect all the time that i know sometimes we just have to let some things go :: smile ::

[17 Jun 2005|11:06pm] so...anyone who isnt sketchy and flakey want to hang out? im free all the time now. 7 :: smile ::

[17 Jun 2005|04:37pm] edit: im over trying to figure things out. and always bending around everyone else. :: smile ::

[17 Jun 2005|12:17am] so today. was one of the best days ever. i havnt laughed so much in so long. hahaha holly snorted!! then went to the beach, bribed my gangly sister. i have a cool thing i want to do... watching those boys was soooo funny. none of you on lj understand then driving home was the best ever i like the way things are turning out with you. "hey you popped your tire! hahahah GOT YOU *voooom*" i love life right now. im tired, pointless update its just today is a night i want to remeber. 1 :: smile ::

[16 Jun 2005|04:54pm] am I loud and clear,or am I breaking up? am I still your charm,or am I just bad luck? are we getting closer,or are we just getting more lost? I'll show you mine if you show me yours first let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words we live on front porches and swing life away, we get by just fine here on minimum wage if love is a labor I'll slave till the end, i won't cross these streets until you hold my hand i've been here so long, I think that it's time to move the winter's so cold, summer's over too soon 1 :: smile ::

[16 Jun 2005|09:33am] dang. he gets me good. 8 :: smile ::

[15 Jun 2005|03:44pm] so... maybe if i was a dealer you'd call me back maybe if i owned a 7 foot bong you'd want to hang out more maybe if i drove a lifted explorer and fake blonde hair and wore pink you'd call me your gf. maybe if i had a pot leaf tattoed on my freaking foehead you wouldnt reject my phone calls!! im bitter. really bitter. 10 :: smile ::

[14 Jun 2005|12:20pm] [ music | sum 41 ] i want a boy with dignity, stlye, class and charm. summer so far has been aight' your talk is cheap and it's going nowhere think you're out changing the world choking on each word you spit convinced of your false visions you're the sucker KEEP TALKING keep talking away KEEP TALKING cashing in all your petty words it's so far from me living like you're dead leahs dog 5 :: smile ::

[13 Jun 2005|09:54am] R.I.P. Allie baba. :: smile ::

no more waiting around for friends or anything else [12 Jun 2005|10:05pm] i really don't understand a lot of things... why i miss this so much why thats all i can think about why it turns out this way this time and it didn't go this way the time before.. i don't even know why i waste my time caring why i waste it thinking it's been so long.. tomorrows the 13th not that anyone besides me and my family would care but im just letting you all know its been a year, and what a hell of a year its been someone commented this on my myspace..and i liked it.. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back :: smile ::

I dont know [12 Jun 2005|12:50pm] I want michael to come back I'm bored with nothing to do... I learned how to salsa dance yesterday. I need friends. 7 :: smile ::

[11 Jun 2005|12:26am] dudeeeee i have so much to say but would rather die then type with these fingernails all i know is i like tic-tac-toe at a park at night annnnnnd im going to HB tomorrow common you dont gotta say it i knooooow youre jealous michael doesnt come back until monday. neh im tired. also im never jumping on a trampoline again. hahahahaha i hate life. p.s. CONGRATS TO THE GRADS. 7 :: smile ::

[09 Jun 2005|04:00pm] schools over. im stoked. i conquered. this year went by fast so much stuff packed into it though july 13's going to be my lucky day hollys is july 5th....shhh okay, now im going to see my boy graduate. see ya <3 5 :: smile ::

[08 Jun 2005|09:16pm] omgggggg I FOUND MY CAR. I'm the happiest kid in the world right now. I love lifted vehicles. 2 :: smile ::

[08 Jun 2005|08:34pm] There is always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. 3 :: smile ::

my mommy is beautiful [08 Jun 2005|03:10pm] so relization is beginning to set it ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no idea how stoked i am, although...i'm going to miss some people at good ol' west hills i have an app to set-up my schedule at el capitan. after michaels graduation, i'll see him off to his sober grad night then its time for me and my girls to start this summer off with a bang. i've had to much coffee today but summer is almot here and im so beyond excited. p.s. kristin you dont got shiiiet on me homes. i got pictures up the canal. p.p.s. i like green day, blink 182 and FATA. and i dont care. 3 :: smile ::

[07 Jun 2005|07:48pm] one thought inside my heart. I said that I don't need you... but I'm a liar I swear I do I do :: smile ::

[06 Jun 2005|05:29pm] soooo today I decided when I got home I've got to stop relying on people. Its kinda a sucky realization when you figure out that you arent as cared about as you once thought and thats fine, I guess. I mean, I have beautiful wonderful friends. but sometimes I just set myself up for dissapointment. I know, I know that every person has there own priorites and thats fine, I just don't understand a lot of things sometimes. I'm going to the sierras for a weekish bymyself now and it sucks, because no one will go with me when my mom told me to invite someone...i didnt know it would be this hard thats when I realized ive gotta stop relying on people so much. So I think this summer, I'm going to be doing a lot of hanging out bymyself so someone who isnt to cool for me, because maybe they dont drive yet... would like to hang out let me know cause I'm down. sorry I dont have a license but I didn't know that meant that the brakes were used for everything, including being best friends. 2 :: smile ::

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